Friday, November 07, 2008

it's judi dench and I

Chemo update: My hair grew back solidly salt and pepper. I've got almost an inch now so I've shredded the head wrap.

And given how much time and money I've spent the past 15 or so years to cover the gray in my hair, all I can say is that that was a big fat waste of time. Rarely have I had so many compliments. It could be that people are just glad to see that I have any hair at all, but I don't think that's all of it. I actually like the gray myself.

I'm just saying. Clairol and the others have us captive. Reclaim the gray.

don't ask random strangers to speak for their race

Dan works with a couple of African-Americans, and they told him that the day after Obama won the election, complete strangers would come up to them to congratulate them, high-five them, or ask them what it felt like to have the first Black president be elected.

Dan suggested they'd look the next stranger in the eye and tell them, "It's pay-back time."

I thought that was funny.

Thursday, November 06, 2008

"I expect a lot from you"

I have borrowed this from Babs and her friend Mark. It's a commencement address given by Barack Obama at Northwestern in 2006. McCain had been the speaker the year before. Watch it.

this is me

Thanks to Babs and Alice.

another thing you can do

Petition to re-open Proposition 8 for California: Click to sign.

four years, two days

Aug. 4, 1961: Barack Obama was born.
Aug. 6, 1965: President Johnson signed The Voting Rights Act.

one thing you can do

"By signing this petition, I affirm and agree that banning gay marriage is unconstitutional, and that a better method of saving the family and protecting the institution of marriage is to constitutionally ban divorce."

Wednesday, November 05, 2008

Tuesday, November 04, 2008

and the cool thing is that both of those things are true at once

So, compared to every other day in the history of this nation, today is a real good day to be Black in the United States.

And, it's also a good day to be in the United States.

today's the day

And it's the first time since I started teaching in the US in 1999 that the students are engaged in the election.

Thursday, October 30, 2008

they are fun when you have them, I am not gonna lie

I was strutting (admittedly) down the hallway at work today, when I heard a voice behind me:

Look at you, all proud of yourself, just because you have eyebrows!

True.

Eyebrows are back.

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

he can say that, because he is mexican too

I was talking to one of my favorite people today, a very passionate gay young man. He told me he had been volunteering his time phone banking, making calls against California's Proposition 8, but that he had had to stop because he was getting too upset, too involved. He was fearing for his health.

Proposition 8 would eliminate the right of same-sex couples to marry in California. That right is important to my friend. He said the issue is affecting his friendships, and that friends are telling him he shouldn't take it personally that they support the proposition.

Not take it personally?

He said, "I tell them how would you feel if I told you Mexicans can't marry, but that you shouldn't take it personally?". And he said, "I want to vote on straight people's right to marry."

Friday, October 24, 2008

so yeah

I bought shampoo today. And conditioner.

Which might seem mundane. But after 20 weeks of chemo, and six weeks of no chemo, my hair has gone from nothing, via salt, salt, and pepper, to pepper, pepper, and salt.

So yeah. Conditioner.

lesson from my high school history teacher

In every war soldiers on both sides believe that God is on their side. Because that's what they are told in the churches back home.

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

people have too much time on their hands

And thanks to them, we get to play around with this.

[expletive] you, indeed

So today as I was waiting for my turn to be radiated I took notes on a topic I have been thinking about for a while.

As I was sitting there writing, through the wall I could hear the muffled sounds of the doctor speaking in labored Spanish to another patient. And, later, I could hear his voice in English, getting help from an interpreter on speaker phone.

In Santa Clara County 64 percent speak another language than English at home. And, according to one of my students today, in Santa Clara County 2 out of 3 is either an immigrant, or the child of immigrants.

Which brings us to the point: Lately Sarah Palin has been making distinctions between "pro-America" parts of the US, and the rest of the country.

"We believe that the best of America is in the small towns that we get to visit, and in the wonderful little pockets of what I call the real America, being here with all of you hard-working, very patriotic, very pro-America areas of this great nation," she said.

To which Jon Stewart, of New York, responded:

"She said that small towns, that's the part of the country she really likes going to because that's the pro-America part of the country. You know, I just want to say to her, just very quickly: [expletive] you."

It's interesting that someone would actually come straight out and define 'real America' in an exclusive way.

Because it follows, then, that there are parts of America that, according to Ms. Palin, are not pro-America, and are not "the best of America."

Where are those places? The big towns? The big cities? You'd have to think that was what Jon Stewart was thinking.

Any definition of America needs be in-clusive. Any definition of America needs to include a big-city immigrant Irish cancer doctor speaking bare bones Spanish to his immigrant patients. And it needs to include those patients, and their young relatives who drive them to the hospital every afternoon.

If that's not the best of America, and the real America, I don't know what is.

19 radiation treatments down, 14 to go

I've read about fatigue that comes with radiation, and I think I have it. At least a little, and at least in the afternoons. After teaching, and being zapped.

Saturday, October 11, 2008

irresistable: red, black, and flowers

- Who bought the coolest Japanese lunch box yesterday?
- Me.

fear not, men of fox news, she's not coming after you with tweezers

As much as Sarah Palin drives me up a wall, in some unexpected ways her being part of the presidential race is pure entertainment.

For instance, it is fun to hear male right-wing pundits and talking heads get themselves worked up over what they perceive as sexism. Never heard that before. Sure didn't hear it when Hillary Clinton was running.

That Newsweek cover there, for instance. I heard references to it in that teaser-TV manner: "Coming up, after the break, why this cover is angering republicans".

So, during the break I picked up my own copy, and looked at it closely. I could not find anything wrong with it.

When the break was over, I heard a frantic male voice from FOX news being replayed on MSNBC:

EVERY WRINKLE IS SHOWING!

I've never heard a man sound so afraid of wrinkles. True fear, I am telling you. Funny, yeah?

So why didn't I find the cover photo offensive? The obvious reason is that I am a woman in my forties, so I know what a woman in her forties looks like. And, compared to that, Sarah Palin does not show a lot of wrinkles on that cover. In fact, she looks happy, friendly, and like a real person. Nothing there to scare FOX news.

november: national novel writing month

November is National Novel Writing Month. Sign up and accept the challenge of writing 50 000 words in 30 days!

today: national coming out day

"Coming out, and living openly, as gay, lesbian, bisexual, or transgendered, or as a straight supportive person, is an act of bravery and authenticity."

Video from the Human Rights Campaign.
National coming out day link.

And, actually, I think that given the sentiments expressed in the youtube clip below, and the proposal of Proposition 8 in California that would "eliminate the right of same-sex couples to marry", the pressure is on for the silent masses of supportive straight persons to be silent no more.

I am in. Everybody has the right to love who they love, right?

god bless america


Thanks to Babs.
It's so scary what is going on.
It does matter what you yell from stage.
It does matter what words you use.

Wednesday, October 08, 2008

outrage

So I've been sick for a few days and I've been making a lot of my new favorite home remedy, the ginger tea with lemon and honey. (And sometimes a dash of chili pepper, that really opens those sinuses.)

Anyway. For the first few days of sick I had a bag of homegrown perfectly in season delicious Santa Clara lemons (thanks Kathy!). After I had run out of those I've had to rely on Safeway.

I just used one of those Safeway lemons right now. Guess where it was from?

Chile.

Chile.

"being able to answer a question forthrightly"

Sarah Palin answers a question on whether she thinks Barack Obama is dishonest:

“I’m not saying he’s dishonest, but in terms of judgment, in terms of being able to answer a question forthrightly, it has two different parts to this. The judgment and the truthfulness and just being able to answer very candidly a simple question about when did you know him, how did you know him, is there still — has there been an association continued since ’02 or ’05, I know I’ve read a couple different stories. I think it’s relevant.”

Tuesday, October 07, 2008

sometimes what you think you can do is just a result of your limited understanding

Maureen Dowd asks a question (The New York Times, Oct. 4) I've been thinking a lot about lately:

We could, following [Sarah Palin's] strenuously folksy debate performance, wonder when elite became a bad thing in America. Navy Seals are elite, and they get lots of training so they can swim underwater and invade a foreign country, but if you’re governing the country that dispatches the Seals, it’s not O.K. to be elite?

Saturday, October 04, 2008

for a cold

Smash up half an inch of fresh ginger. Put the smashed up pieces in a teapot, add boiling water, and let it brew for ten minutes.

Pour the tea into a big mug. Add the juice from a half a lemon, and a tablespoon of honey. Mmmmm.

Tuesday, September 30, 2008

yuk yuk yukky

So I have been trying to eat healthy and cook real food every day. It's going great.

Yesterday I figured I should venture into the whole bring your lunch to work and heat it in the microwave thing. So I prepared a container last night, and this morning I even remembered to bring it. When lunchtime came I put the container in the microwave, and zapped it for a bit.

It wasn't the right container. It didn't have cauliflower soup in it, it had some other random leftover. And a not so successful experiment of a leftover at that.

Mango with citrus soy sauce, blended with plain yogurt. Imagine that, lukewarm and with a spoon.

big ideas

I really liked this week's episode of This American Life.

First you get a story explaining what it takes to help children born into poverty to succeed in school. It's very inspiring and hopeful, beacuse it seems it actually works.

Then comes a really funny story about a musician who is asked by a guy to serenade him and his girlfriend to help the guy get the girl back.

Friday, September 26, 2008

time to get back in shape

Three radiation treatments down, 30 to go.

Each treatment is super fast, a couple of minutes only. What takes time is getting the receipt for the copay, changing into the gown, and getting lined up under the machine.

And I learned today the YMCA has classes for cancer survivors. Just what I need.

Wednesday, September 24, 2008

a woman's right to choose

From The San Jose Mercury News:

HARTFORD, Conn.—Attorneys general from 13 states on Wednesday protested a proposed Bush administration rule that would give stronger job protections to doctors and other health care workers who refuse to participate in abortions because of religious or moral objections.

In a letter to the Department of Health and Human Services, the states said the rule is too vague in defining abortion, and may be interpreted to include birth control.

"It threatens to drastically discourage and even deter a woman's right to choose," Connecticut Attorney General Richard Blumenthal said. "This proposed rule unconscionably puts personal agendas before patient care ... failing even to acknowledge the rights of rape victims and others to access birth control and related vital health services."

Other states joining Connecticut in protesting the rule are Arizona, Illinois, Iowa, Maine, Maryland, Massachusetts, Montana, New Jersey, Oregon, Rhode Island, Utah and Vermont.

Whole article here.

Tuesday, September 23, 2008

no, she wasn't listening to the radio either

After my class and my office hour today I left our building and stepped out into the perfect California September day. There was a nice warm breeze, and sunshine. Finally the heat is gone.

As I was walking towards my car I really paid attention to how wonderful the sun and the breeze felt. I was doing a good job of appreciating the moment.

I reached my car. Next to it another car is parked, with the windows rolled down. Inside, a girl is eating her homemade lunch sandwich out of a plastic container.

See, that is something I do not understand. The campus has beautiful lawns, and benches everywhere. Why eat in your car?

Sunday, September 21, 2008

otherizing obama

Interesting column from the NY Times again, this time by Nicholas D. Kristof:

What is happening, I think, is this: religious prejudice is becoming a proxy for racial prejudice. In public at least, it’s not acceptable to express reservations about a candidate’s skin color, so discomfort about race is sublimated into concerns about whether Mr. Obama is sufficiently Christian.

The result is this campaign to “otherize” Mr. Obama. Nobody needs to point out that he is black, but there’s a persistent effort to exaggerate other differences, to de-Americanize him.

Thursday, September 18, 2008

anthropomorphising

People are walking their dogs a lot in the park and on the mountain trail close to my house. Sometimes these people bring water for their dogs, which seems reasonable when it is hot outside. Dogs drink sloppily out of bottles, and seem happy.

Yesterday, though, I saw a woman who went one step further. She had brought not only water, but also a snack for her little dog. A snack in a plastic container, so the little dog wouldn't be hungry on the walk home.

Haven't we gone a little too far in taking "care" of our best friends? Americans love to walk and eat at the same time. They also like to eat while they do a whole slew of other things: drive, watch ballgames, watch TV and movies, the list goes on. No activity is too small not to warrant a snack. But to train your pet to do the same? Isn't that insane?

Wednesday, September 17, 2008

halloween food

Dan always tells me I throw out food that is perfectly fine. So for that reason today I took the seven carrots that were hiding at the bottom of the crisper and made carrot soup. The carrots were a bit beyond their prime (had they been furniture they would have been shabby chic), but the only other ingredient was garlic, and that was fresh.

I took: carrots, cut up in pieces, and garlic, and let that sweat in olive oil.
I added: salt, black pepper, cumin, and allspice.
And then: water to cover generously, and a chicken bouillon cube.
I let it: Boil until the carrots were soft.
Then I zapped it with the hand blender.
Natural yogurt (yeah, the Russian again), and dill on top.

fiber

One thing I never have the energy to make is muesli. Every recipe lists hundreds of ingredients and have multi-step instructions. Too much work, too much planning, too much time at the whole grain bar at Whole Foods.

And I never buy muesli either. Too much sugar.

So for breakfast today I had plain yogurt ('Russian', yum), a little apricot jam, and oats. Plain, dry.

Needs improvement.

maureen dowd again

Referring to her recent trip to Alaska, she ends today's column like this:

R. D. Levno, a retired school principal, flew in from Fairbanks. “She’s a child, inexperienced and simplistic,” she said of Sarah. “It’s taking us back to junior high school. She’s one of the popular girls, but one of the mean girls. She is seductive, but she is invented.”

Wow.

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

mmm it was good

I made a pretty good spinach soup, and then I remembered that you are not supposed to reheat spinach.

My insides are very green now.

defending palin

Anyone who talks negatively about Sarah Palin's tanning bed (which she bought for her own money to have put in the Governor's Mansion in Juneau, AK) doesn't understand exactly how pale a white person gets that far north in the winter when there is barely any daylight. (Juneau and Stockholm are roughly on the same latitude.)

Myself, I turn a sickly blueish green.

Sunday, September 14, 2008

anyone remember adam morris?

Thanks to Netflix I have been able to watch again a TV series (or, more like a series of related plays written for TV) that I loved in the late 1970s. It's called The Glittering Prizes and I don't think many people remember it.

The focus is on a group of friends who meet at university in Cambridge in the 1950s. We then follow them for 20 years, into the 1970s. I am sure I liked the series when I was young because it gave me an idea of what growing up might be like. I also loved the romance of British university life.

What struck me when I watched it again was that I still like it. The actors are good, and for the most part the stories are interesting. I also liked the feeling of watching plays rather than TV. It had to do with the lighting and the writing, and how the tension is allowed to build. Very cool, and very unlike American TV of today.

One thing that surprised me was how all of the actors were super skinny, men and women both. Apparently that was the ideal in the 1970s. Skinny, no muscles. People today are much more toned. Gives a very different feel.

The sad part: I remember the main character, played by Tom Conti, as witty and funny. Now I found him slightly annoying. I guess my taste has changed. I also wonder why wikipedia's only photo of him in his older years is this one:
In a robe? Who took that photo? Apparently someone very short who didn't want to do him a favor. Disgruntled grandkid mailed it in?

shameless self-promotion

As you may or may not have discovered, I show my photos on smugmug.com. And guess what? I just created a new gallery for the Henry Coe State Park pics.

I have millions of flowers on that site, but other things too. A couple of random examples: If you want to know what a Swedish forest looks like, click here. And here are pics of Stockholm from last summer.

"I probably should have wanted it more"

Thursday, September 11, 2008

I feel a little better about school starting in ten days now

In three autobiographical books Francisco Jimenez chronicles his journey from migrant child to starting grad school to 'become a college teacher'. I just read the third installment, Reaching Out, that tells the stories from Francisco's undergraduate years.

Like many other students - and people in general - Francisco Jimenez received help when he most needed it. Often the help came from his teachers, but it also came from strangers. His books are quiet reminders to help others when we can.

thanks andrea

Oh this is just lovely:
On Wednesday, September 3, we sent out an email to 40 friends and colleagues asking them to respond to Sarah Palin’s candidacy as Vice President of the United States. They forwarded the letter to their friends across America. To date, we have received more than 90,000 responses from women of all ages and backgrounds. Below are their voices.

The blog: Women Against Sarah Palin.

silly

Wednesday, September 10, 2008

henry w. coe state park (III): the golden state

the europeans get along

I randomly met a Swiss woman today. 'Other people think we are the same', I said. 'Yes', she said. 'I tell them I am from Switzerland, and people say Oh, I've been to Sweden'.

She was probably in her fifties, and she told me that she still remembers how her hands and feet hurt when she was sitting on the train going to school at 6AM when she was at university in Geneva.

When it's cold outside and you come into a hot room, your hands and feet hurt in a very special way. I had forgot all about that until she mentioned it.

yum-my

Cardamom in the pancake batter.
I am just saying.

Monday, September 08, 2008

henry w. coe state park (I)

yellow little flower

oak

and don't tell me I have no sense of humor

I'll be honest, what might happen in this election scares me. If Sarah Palin pulls John McCain to a win... that won't be fun.

But fun is exactly the word the Swedish press has been using. They think the campaign is fun and exciting now with the addition of new female blood.

Obviously an American election is international news. The US is a powerful nation. But when the election coverage gets reduced to ideas of what is exciting and not, and people forget that the candidate is strongly anti-abortion and a creationist... not so fun to me.

Saturday, September 06, 2008

last chemo

So yeah, I just completed 20 weeks of chemotherapy.

For several reasons I haven't talked about it much, but I was diagnosed with stage two breast cancer earlier this year. I had surgery, and then the chemo. And now it's over. Yesterday was my last day.

It hasn't been bad. (Knock on wood.) Before you start they tell you all about the different side effects. It's a long list. I've been lucky. I haven't had many. I am doing good.

I did loose my hair, eyebrows, and eyelashes. But a scarf and make-up make that less obvious. The hair is coming back already, short and gray. I am thinking in a month I'll have styling options.

Cancer is a scary disease, but it also teaches you to focus, and to appreciate life. A woman I met today was talking about the horses she wants to raise when she is done with all her treatments. She had had eight horses before she got sick, but she said that cancer had made her poor. A single mom she had had to stop working, and sell the horses. And move to the city to be closer to the hospital.

Horses, not for me... But I find myself wanting to make things. Time to think.

“we’re not going to get into discussing her religion,” said the spokeswoman

The New York Times on Sarah Palin's religious views.

Also in the New York Times, here someone talking about women and politics. It's well worth reading:

"One of the worst poisons of the American political climate right now, the thing that time and again in recent years has led us to disaster, is the need people feel for leaders they can “relate” to."

And:

"Why does this woman – who to some of us seems as fake as they can come, with her delicate infant son hauled out night after night under the klieg lights and her pregnant teenage daughter shamelessly instrumentalized for political purposes — deserve, to a unique extent among political women, to rank as so “real”?"

Wednesday, September 03, 2008

"she didn't like the way I was pouring"

Someone is adjusting to new room mates:

I thought maybe I was just being oversensitive so I exercised my much worked on patience. Then today after she re-applied the trash bag in the trash can AND took my milk carton out of my hand because she didn't like the way I was pouring, I realized I'm not the crazy one.

local? news?

Headline on my local news right now: Meet the father of Sarah Palin's daughter's baby!

the teenager

Monday, September 01, 2008

me? right now?

Catching some rays.

in america, they talk

I was on the trail just now, and a family of four or five came bicycling up behind me. Every kid (ages 4-7, roughly), and then mom, practiced their best "On your left, please!" as they passed me and another woman walking ahead of me.

Last came dad on his bike, pulling one of those little wagons behind: "Good job, Jeremy! Thank you, ladies!".

I know a country where this entire episode would have taken place in complete silence.

gustave

Seems most of the TV folks have given up on the German in favor of a French-ish pronunciation: Gystavve.

Friday, August 29, 2008

yesterday

From The Summit Daily News:
On Aug. 28, 1955, in Money, Miss., two white men kidnapped Emmett Till, a 14-year-old boy who whistled at a white girl. The men beat Till, gouged out one of his eyes, shot him in the head, tied a cotton gin fan to his neck with barbed wire and hurled his body into the Tallahatchie River. A jury acquitted them, but the incident galvanized the civil rights movement, then in its infancy.

Eight years later, on Aug. 28, 1963, King stood in front of the Lincoln Memorial before 200,000 people and looked ahead to a day when the dynamic would be different.

"I have a dream," King said that day, "that one day this nation will rise up and live out the true meaning of its creed: 'We hold these truths to be self-evident — that all men are created equal. ... I have a dream that my four little children will one day live in a nation where they will not be judged by the color of their skin but by the content of their character."

And on Aug. 28, 2008, Barack Obama became the first black man to accept a major political party's presidential nomination.

Thursday, August 28, 2008

thanks tira

This is a really cool site that allows you to help out a teacher and donate money to a specific classroom project. You can search and find projects in your area, or in a specific subject.

no, I don't think paolo reads my blog

Filipino kid taught me to eat mango with soy sauce. Oh my.

I had asked, "Where do you feel you belong?", and he said, "Under the mango trees where my dad is from in the Philippines."

still it's better than when they addressed a letter to me to 'ladda'

My 13 year old nephew's first name is Gustav. It's a solidly Swedish name, the name of kings.

Now it's also the name of an approaching hurricane. The American pronunciation of the name is weirdly German-sounding: 'Goooshtaff'. Cracks me up every time.

Wednesday, August 27, 2008

this doesn't mean racism is dead, though

An African American was made a candidate for president today. I sat in a parking lot listening to the voting because it was a historic moment.

Tuesday, August 26, 2008

speaking of fish

In America, if you want fried mackerel (and there really is no reason why you wouldn't since it's one of the best things ever), you'll have to find yourself a Japanese restaurant.

Yum. Just like home.

Sunday, August 24, 2008

for this information we thank the new york times, and our trusty household iphone

How cool is this: George Orwell's diaries, from 1938-1942, are being published as a blog. Entries are posted exactly 70 years after they were written.

Saturday, August 23, 2008

americans won't use toilet paper to blow their nose

Once or twice I have offered toilet paper to an American who needed to blow their nose.

I won't make that mistake again.

They look as if I had offered them used toilet paper, at least.

Seemingly unrelated, but related story:

A nice dinner in Sweden, especially on the West coast, likely features seafood of some kind. Sometimes nothing else, except for toast and sharp cheese. It's very good.

I remember listening to an American who had been invited to an upscale version of a dinner like that. He was in shock. The hostess, seated next to him, had been using her fingers, and the juice from the crab and the lobster and the shrimp had been all over her hands and forearms. He said she had behaved like an animal. He was appalled and intrigued at the same time.

I said that's how you eat seafood in my country. He didn't believe me.

One of my best friends goes fishing a lot when she visits her parents on the West coast where we grew up. Then she transports her crab and lobster and fish across the country to Stockholm where she lives. She and her mom (who boils the lobster and the crab, and boy are they delicious) has perfected a system for her to get them home safe and still frozen.

When I visit my friend in the summers, I get to pick what I want to eat. I am so happy I don't know what to do with myself. We eat in her kitchen. The juice from the crab or the lobster is all over our hands and forearms, but we dry ourselves off before eating a piece of toast, or drinking some wine. That's how you do it.

What we use to dry ourselves? Had it been my parents' house, or most other people's houses, it would have been paper towel. There would be a roll sitting right there on the table. Informal and practical.

At my friend's house it's toilet paper. She can't be bothered to buy both paper towel and toilet paper. She says it's the same stuff anyway, just cut differently. There is always a roll of toilet paper in her paper towel holder on her kitchen wall.

So that's a cultural difference right there.

(And in our country paper towel and toilet paper actually are the same. Swedish toilet paper is sturdier than the American version. But that's another story.)

sad

Barack Obama had promised his supporters they would be the first to know his choice of vice president.

But last night the news was leaked, and none of us got the email or the text message or the twitter update until after CNN and everybody else knew.

I was disappointed because bypassing established news channels would have been historic.

Friday, August 22, 2008

forty years ago, another olympics

In a famous gesture John Carlos and Tommie Smith raised their fists at the 1968 Mexico City Olympics. They wanted to draw attention to human rights and poverty. They were harshly punished.

Carlos and Smith were students at San Jose State University at the time, and in recent years the student union at the university has worked hard to get a statue put up. It was unveiled in 2005. The ceremony was the first time Carlos and Smith had been honored for what they did.

In a creative move silver medalist Australian Peter Norman is left out to make room for visitors.

It's been 40 years, but the image and the act are still powerful.

Here is what the New York Times writes on Aug. 23, 2008.

Peter Norman's nephew, Matt Norman, has made a documentary called Salute. Here is the trailer: